Bye 2008

December 31, 2008

An early snowstorm and now the temperature dropping to below zero is a perfect way to end 2008.

It’s been a profound year and thus, I feel like I should have something profound to write.  Instead, I’m at a loss for words.  I’m at a loss for the perfect words to sum up the year.  For the words to accurately describe or capture it all.  What I can say though, is that I’m glad it’s over.  Not because it was a bad year, because it wasn’t.  It was a magnificent year in fact.  And when I say magnificent I don’t mean without obstacles or hurt.  I don’t mean that it was blissfully painless or all fun.  What I mean is that I’ve learned a lot.  I’ve grown a lot.  I’ve discovered a lot.  I’ve loved a lot.  None of these good things in life come to us without struggle.  But I’m glad it’s over because I need to catch my breath.  I need a clean slate, even if it’s the artificial act of turning the page on the calendar.  I need to gear up and gather my strength because I’ve got big plans.  One of the definitions of magnificent is: impressive to the mind or spirit.  That about sums it up.

I don’t really have any resolutions, but I do have goals and big crazy dreams.  Those I’ll write about tomorrow, right now I need go out and drink some champagne and kiss a stranger.


Unquenched thirst

December 16, 2008

You know when you wake up in the middle of the night and shuffle to the fridge for something to drink….

Picture me in the dark (because my fridge light is always burnt out) reaching for a carton of milk.  I throw my head back and gulp right out of the container.  There is a moment of confusion, between my taste buds and my brain.  I was expecting milk, but got grapefruit juice instead.  I’m a little disgusted and disappointed, not because I don’t like grapefruit juice, but because I was expecting milk.

This scenario is a perfect metaphor for my life right now.  Anticipating one thing and getting something else.  

Unquenched thirst

alternate worlds

December 16, 2008

I’ve hidden from the cold world today.  Protected by blankets and pillows, living in the worlds of dreams, books and movies.  Listening through headphones.  Peering through blinds.  Time has slowed considerably.  A restless calm has consumed me.


December 11, 2008

I was feeling elated when I got home yesterday evening.  My third presentation for the week was done and I felt high from the gym.  As I approached my apartment, I saw a small package propped up against my door in the narrow hallway.  Totally unexpected, I wondered who the gift was from.  I wondered what it was?  I remembered back before the internet when I received hand written letters and postcards complete with stamps from exotic places.  One of my favorite packages I received was a box chock full of garlic that I had helped to plant the previous year.  

So, when I bent down to pick up the package I noticed the printed label and my excitement drained.  It was from Kotex, an overly packaged marketing scheme, it was a box of maxi pads and tampons!  Boring and disappointing to say the least.